i got dumped today. at brunch.

ive been single (and contented) for years until last month.

my life has changed since then.

oh, no. my life has not stopped changing since then--which is good, i think.

what happened at brunch was another change.

i was starting to fall in love with this person.

and i was about to tell him so.

but this person dumped me in a very unique manner.

that we have to evaluate our situation
that everything happened so fast
that this person felt pressured
that we did not have a solid foundation for a relationship yet
that it came at the wrong time--i came at the wrong time?
that we should start clean
that we should be friends
and not put hopes on it

and much more i could not remember right now.

i was not able to say anymore what i had to say.

i would have agreed with him--because i felt the same way too though not completely--if he had said that a month ago.

but a month ago he told me
that he loved me
that he was ready to have me as his girl
that he and i will have to make our relationship work
and things like that

but i agreed with him anyway because i felt that he was serious in what he was saying.

whatever happened to what i wanted to say?

i just said it to myself

after a few hours

in a female washroom cubicle