There is not much going on in my life right now. I'm broke. Bowie's "Heroes" playing in the background.
Maybe I really need to seek professional help. It feels like dark-2017 all over again. :(
Or maybe I'm just looking for love and I don't want to admit it. Yes, I have my family and dog and some friends and all, and I love them, but you get what I mean. But I don't want to deal with the complexities of being in a relationship. Besides, I don't have anyone to love. Sure there are some who've "expressed intent," but I don't want to settle. I don't want to force myself to love someone just because they love me. I want my magic. I want someone I actually want. We're all selfish like that.
They say love is a choice. I agree, but I think there has to be something, a spark or something else, to incite that choice. Is it too much to hope for a spark?
