Still wondering after all these years

I see posts & photos of my Facebook friends (yes, only on FB) and they're all so happy and I'm glad they're happy, but I feel kind of bad for myself. What do I do to have that kind of glimmer in my eye? *sigh* I hope I find it, stumble upon it. I want to be happy. This feeling makes me want to climb a mountain...or drown myself in alcohol (nah, health hazard). I'll get through this. Right, nonexistent reader? I give it a few days.