oh. my. G.

I'VE CHANGED

I bought a stick of yosi just a few minutes ago and ended up throwing it on the sidewalk before I could even smoke half of it. I never imagined myself not finishing a single stick of cigarette. Well I did and I felt alarmed.

BUT

This isn't the only time I felt alarmed these past few days. Last night, instead of waiting for my only favorite telenovela (uh, Maging Sino Ka Man), I crawled under the covers and slept unconscientiously. Without putting an alarm on my cellphone for the next day.

Then this morning, I woke and got up WITHOUT an alarm. on time. Imagine that. On FUCKING time.

IT'S OKAY

Now I wonder if I'm just being paranoid or plain exaggerated or if I was just too plainly stupid to realize changes in myself. I do not know.

I'm confused, I'm a little (well, a lot) on the emotional side right now. I haven't figured out why just yet. Well I guess I do not really want to figure it out at this point. I don't want to figure it out ever.

I guess I could as well leave it at that and let it pass. I know I'll wake up normal again. perhaps tomorrow, or maybe later--in the middle of the night.

I THINK I'M FINE, ANYWAY

ooh..i missed blogging.