This year has been good so far, I have not had any major depressive thoughts. I still have no clear idea where my life is headed, but unlike the previous years, I do not want it to end. Despite my financial destitution, I'm doing well. Feeling hopeful, even. I'm thinking of getting a steady part-time job here because I think I'll need it if I want to travel outside the country next year . I need it for visa purposes and extra moolah of course. I need to be out of the house every now and then or else I will slide back into the pit I tried so hard to crawl out of. Yes, there is still a cloud of misery hanging around, but I think I can handle it better now. I don't want to end up killing myself--remember last year? Oh goodness Lord please don't let me go through that again.
I've been talking to a new friend these past few weeks. Like, every single day since May 30. Met this person in Antique, he was part of the group I joined to climb Mt. Baloy Dako, which by the way deserves a separate kwento. Anyway, he is easy to talk to, maybe because he is an Aquarian like I am. I lent him some of my books, which I hope to get back someday because they're my paper-babies! Simply talking to people helps, even if I don't talk about my misery.
Meanwhile, I have once again broken some hearts. I hate it, but I couldn't let it go on. Unfair to all of us. I don't like hurting people because I don't like getting hurt. I'm not even that pretty, you know, so I don't get why these guys like me. I appreciate it, though. I guess you can't really choose who you fall for.
Gotta go. I have to finish a script today.
