before i leave for my medical exam

i'm having my medical exam today. i was supposed to have gotten through it by now but because my bed decided to be extra magnetic today, i was not able to get up early and on time.

anyway. i need my medical exam so the company i applied at will know if i am fit to work. i hope the results turn out good (especially now that i know that i'm negative of any drug trace, haha). i pray that my lungs don't have spots, my urine is clear and uninfected, my blood is normal, and things i'm not really familiar with but i hope they all turn out gooooooooooood.

as a loved one said in a relatively different context, this is 'for our sake' so it has to freaking turn out good.

i'm just finishing my lunch now (a pasta dish that i concocted the day before yesterday) and it damn tastes good. perhaps i should just forget my wild dreams of writing and being published so i can become a world-class chef, eh? nah. i'll continue to be a slave to the pen even if it hates me so much. i'm just happy i can cook a little now.

i am utterly annoyed at myself

so i took time evaluating my stupid blog days ago and i can say i am right a bout one thing--and more. specifically, yes, it IS stupid. more so, pathetic.

this is supposed to help me hone my nonexistent writing skills but as i examined each entry i had posted, turns out that about a third of my whole blog shit is composed of online personality (et. al.) tests results. four-fifths of my entries are written in tagalog and/or taglish. much of what i have written consist of my rants, raves, and sheer helplessness. ..but hey. i'm actually using math. hehe. fake, trying hard math, though. but still, math.

maybe this is a start. i could be a mathematician someday. then i should write more and evaluate what i write more. good, good, good.

here's a list of what i plan on writing about:

• love
• my dad
• my relatives
• my officemates
• my self
• my friends
• my theatre group
• tita naty
• my favorite place in the world
• things that are never forgranted
• my friends' quirky interests
• other people's wild preoccupation with other people's lives
• our good gvernment and its good governance over its people
• heaven
• my religion

ambitious. i hope i can even start writing my day-to-day shit in straight english (my grammar is crooked, i know and i'm a little embarrassed about it but i'm really trying to improve).

good thing pala i got annoyed. annoyance brings pleasant discoveries. ^_^